Sunday, October 9, 2011

The next phase in life....

This week has been a long and draining week.  Emotions have been up and down.  Got the shock of my life to recieve news that Dad got admitted to hospital for another stroke.  Yah this is the 2nd time and I must say he is very lucky that he survived this time. 

He was still able to talk to us when he was first admitted.   But condition got worst after that. He is very sleepy most of the time. Currently on NGT and can't talk.  Good thing is that he can still follow instructions and power is still consider good. 

My MSW training has helped for me to prepare what is ahead and also knowing the true reality which can be very bitter at times.  I remember how the Dr show us the scans and trying to emphasize to us on the seriousness of the situation.  And the first thing in my mind is that, if the 3rd one comes along it will be the end of story.
Anyway it is painful to see him in his current condition but I also know that is something that I have to learn to cope with. The ironic part is that back at work, this is supposed to be my area of speciality. I have to see patients with the same conditions and support their families instead.  But maybe after his episode I may be really able to empthaise with them totally. 

Today went to maid agency to employ a maid.  All the things I tell people on a daily basis is happening to me.  Ok, I am not an advocate for getting maids but thanks to nature of my job, maid agencies should give us comission for giving them business.  Anyway the process is tedious and the "heng suay" part that I tell people everyday may happen to me.  Interview 2 persons over the phone.  One ask me if I have a helper at home to help to do household chores!!!  FYI, she is supposed to be the maid but she is asking for another maid!   We manage to get another one instead who sounded ok over the phone.  Minimum she sounds willing to learn.  Now is pending me to do the online test thing which the website is down! 

For once, I really understand how my patients' families feel having to go through all these.  Is going to be a long journey and let's hope that everything go as per plan.  I am really entering into the next phase in life when it is my turn to take care of my parents.   And I truly hope that when I grow up, I will not be a grumpy, difficult old auntie - which I think I will be one :)

Monday, March 21, 2011

一公升的眼泪


Reading this book now <<一公升的眼泪>> aka 1 Litre of Tears.  Got the translated copy from kinokuniya last weekend after watching the drama online.  Something to inspire and remind us that not matter how sucky life is, we need to face it head strong and move on. 

1st post for 2011

1st post of the year and it is already March 2011!!!  Wonder what I have been doing for the past few months?  I really wonder? 

Well, Chinese New Year was spent rotting at home.  Went back to work feeling depressed cos I could not comprehen why I need to work.  Best is that my dear boss told me that I should not "live day by day" on the first day I returned to work.  Note: that is after 2 weeks of leave! 

Yah so not to live day by day and must have a vision and mission of what I want to do in life.   Seriously, I do not aspire to stay in office forever.   But I cannot not live day by day cos I am already half dead living day by day.  Hiazzz... past few Sat have been burnt all thanks to JCIA. 

Only good thing is that manage to spend some time stoning with part of the Blacklisters last week.  And I need to thank the school holidays for that.  If not I am sure they are also half dead.

Achievements for the past few months?  Nothing significant other than I manage to get the Singapore Flyer pass.  Finally got onto Singapore Flyer!  But according to my sister, nobody in the family is excited expect me :(



And the most is that last week went to St James Powerstation for Social Worker's Day.  Yah, everything just flew past and is over liao. Hopefully before I know it, my worklist will also just disappear in a flash!  Yah, I am dreaming.